relation

so my week has still been pretty usual in an unusual way. or vice-versa.

early on in the morning, i was having dreams inside of dreams again. i didn't know if i was awake or still in a slumber. either way it wasn't rest, but i was refreshed when i actually woke up. around 9 am, my brother was cursing; his ankle was sprained. i took him to a doctor.

he & his girlfriend were conversing. i was lost in one of my malformed moods again and in between worlds. i decided to listen to some Portugal. the Man!! to get pumped up for next week. as i turned it on; a song just ended and then BLAM! the Album Leaf's "over the pond" came out next. everything just seemed to connect . like i couldn't be seen by anyone. i looked over at this lady with her little boy, he was very cute, i realized that he's happy right now, he doesn't have any worries or problems. then my thoughts turned to him in the future. he's not going to ever be that way again. innocent, happy or unknowing of what lies ahead. he's going to have to see how cruel the world really is. my eyes shifted to this older lady in the waiting room. she was lost in a thought. she's had a long life and as it nears it seems horrible but welcoming at the same time. other people in other areas in different rooms showed the spectra of emotions clinging to their faces. there were lonely people, frustrated people, interested, worried, happy etc people.

as this was going on, the songs volume kept rising. then i could see things unfolding; a small glimpse of the future. but instead they are the things that will never occur. it was saddening. past memories were excavated by present-day ones. everything bad & happy that happened. then i focused on a few choice thoughts.

it felt like the sound of my breath was the only thing that kept my feet planted on the ground. everything there...fit. it all was related to one another. as if perfection was reached but still intangible. there was this connection--unexplainable.

my eyes were tearing up. everything was beautifully sad.....

eh, i wish i could explain better. sorry