repetitive notions

so...i think i am severely stupid! i can't stop thinking about this boy!! ergh, i know, this usually happens to me especially in these cases.


well, as you know i have a tendency to be attracted to people i can't have or that won't like me. i don't want to be bound to repeat or stay stuck in a perpetual rut of love(usually infatuation)---->heartbreak----->hurt----->repeat

but this is different, or at least i don't know if it is.
there's this boy that i've built up this strong passion for. i can't shake it nor do i want it to escape. i don't know how he feels towards this; at first it seemed like he felt the same way but now i don't know. actually i doubt he feels anything towards me. i really wish that something magical could happen between us but inivetibally reality catches up and it hits hard.

Agh!!i need some help!!! =( advice?

i know i could really like this boy a whole lot!!!! but being in this situation again, i know how the script goes and how this will end. i don't want it to!!

i hope this is different. this ends happy???? and now i don't know how i feel...