split weekend & the man

well it turns out a traffic citation i had gotten last year has come to haunt me! i just a letter in the mail that i have to pay $86 for it. i went to defensive driving and all. i told my mom and the situation seems to be a tad more worse than it is. apparently i have to pay more cash 'cus i didn't go to court, i didn't even get a letter saying i was to appear in court! the instructor at defensive driving told me it was ok if the letter was late but now all the signs are pointing to it's not! well in 59 days i will have a warrant issued out for me. but i'm gonna fight this! my mom just told me that if i get stopped by a cop i'll be taken in!! i don't want this to be on my record! i'm upset right now. i hope this works itself out in a good way for me :S

in other news, it's time to take out the snappy dresses & dance at ledisko! it's this Saturday, i passes out lots of the flyer's, hopefully i won't get my anxiety up when i see more people there. either that or i'll be drunk before. people tend to go away just a little when i'm drunk (plus it loosens my inhibitions) on the same day my favorite local band, Subrosa, is gonna have a CD release party. i haven't heard from them in years! since i was a sophomore (i think) so ima try to split the night.

an update on my social things-- i think i'm actually doing a lot better of talking to people, i really haven't made any friends but i was able to give out flyer's to people like nothing! i'm proud! [pats self on back] so hopefully i'll be able to dance like there's no tomorrow.

Big Brother has come-a-knocking

AGH! I'm so scared right now; well i was more frightened earlier. while doing some research on my big bro paper i stumbled on some crazy articles. By May 11, 2008 we all will have to have REAL IDs World Net Daily . It's really scary, after reading it i was filled with terror, these id's will have our information on it, our full name, SS#, dob, license #, address, digital photo, a fingerprint, facial features & iris scan to go with it too. I know I'm not that paranoid but this is scary. i really do hope that this will not happen besides it's already going into effect. I'm not religious, but this may be "the mark of the devil" according to a christian site. I'm not worried about it being "the devil" but it's scary that we will be tracked wherever we are and we are being watched.

1984 is happening and it's not even trying to hide itself; what shame! other than this smart cameras are being put up in Chicago & i think New York has some already. these smart cameras are being used to stop potential fights before they begin by measuring a person's voice with aggression. when it reaches a certain level, the camera detects it, sends out an alarm & dispatches police. Holland seems to like it.

Canada's looking nicer than ever now.

PLEASE! if anyone is reading this please click to vote against the ID chip!!!

arizona

well i know it's been a while since i've been on here & i s'pose i should catch up on what i've been doing. on sunday morning Brenda, Cookie & i left to Arizona & we just got back today around 10. boy was it hella fun! i absolutely loved it. but of course to every bad there were goods. we stayed with Brenda's cousin, Arlene & her cousin, Tania in this really nice apartment. she's only 19 & she's really well off & very independent; i couldn't believe she's my age! :0 i thought man, i could've been doing this like her.we smam so much over there, everyday actually and the jacuzzi was absolutely delicious!

being over there felt nice, i didn't get homesick like cookie, she wanted to leave the first day we got there, which kinda blowed. i didn't know she would be like that when travelling. Brenda didn't really seem to want to do anything. so i was left with all the excitement to myself. =\ i wanted to check out the malls, imax, roller rink, zoo, desert, downtown, etc.. but nope nothing really like that. but we did do a lot of things. downtown Tempe was super nice & jeez-lou-eeze is asu huge! i think i'm scared of applying there. so many people & everyone looked hardcore intimidating. this is the first time i actually felt like a minority & then two minutes later i got over it & loved it!

a lot of people from everywhere live there, that was pretty wild. all the vehicles are also really nice, i don't think i saw more than 4 cars that were below a 2000 model.

hm, i've racked up one adventure which was actually pretty wild and very unexpected. on wednesday Cookie & Brenda went to take a dip in the pool & i was freezing so i stayed in to watch the tube. i decided to go out to hang by the pool with them and Tania (Brenda's cousins' cousin) Brenda told me that she had stickered this cute guy in black walking around. i didn't see anyone. then she said "there they are", i asked her if she wanted me to ask them if they wanted to join them for a swim. she wanted me to talk to them. so i asked them & they said maybe later, i left to get some more water & they were coming into the pool as i came back out. so, we all started talking about things & then they were swimming & since i made one get in the pool i had to, so i went to put on my bathing suit & prolonged getting in. but i did, i took them by surprise. then it was us three & asked if we wanted to go to the hot tub with them, i was like sure, but i wouldn't go alone, so Cookie came along. oh the only working hot tub was in the other complex & we had to jump the gate to get in, how sad. that hot tub was effing boiling! but it felt good, we kept going in & out of the cold water to the hot one. mmm... it felt good, a little shocking to the body. my poor nerves! i thought we'd all hand out, you know just talking & then it became apparent that we were going to pair off 'cus cookie liked the funny sounding one. as for me i talked to Conrad and we had lots of things in common, so we had a long intense conversation. followed by some cuddling =) i like cuddling. long story short. we didn't get back to the apt until 15 till 5 am! Brenda came out "What the Fuck guys!" haha, it was funny, i was so scared i don't remember un-hugging the guys & getting inside. she was just worried, how cute. alas, we left. so Tania's going to exchange my number with Conrad. but i forgot to give her my number! =\ so that's going to be a problem. but it was a good connection, he was really nice.

i love road trips! travelling is calling my name once more!

boycotts & relationships

Nora thinks that i don't let myself find/be in a relationship. which is kinda true but i really don't feel the need to be in one even though i've been wanting to fall madly in love. ok, i lied; i do, but's it not as easy as it seems. i think meeting someone online is romantic and in person can be much more impersonal. but i'm going to try & go on at least one date. hopefully someone will ask me [gulp]

it doesn't seem like Scottsdale is going to happen this spring break, Brenda hasn't gotten her income tax, we haven't met her mom yet, and the whole lack of cash with everyone. so that kinda blows.

i think my boycotts have started up once again:
-wal-mart
-fast food
-starbucks (3 1/2 yrs)
etc...

Eep!! Calla is gonna play in Alb' on the 23rd so hopefully i can go see them, anyone wanta join? the more* the merrier and cheaper it'll cost too.

*limit 4 people. ha