a bottle can't cure a heartache

i'm going back to feeling strange. you know those feelings that you can't explain but it's something? eh, i remember i felt like this in 2004 around the time i got into the accident. it's a lonely feeling and it's not because i moved; it's just me. ghosts follow you wherever you go. i'm sad & i need more pills. something else that's constant. a difference-- back then i had Alix to talk with =)

i find myself yearning for the past once again. my obsession with it will never end. i wish things turned out differently. i don't want to find myself repetitively thinking & longing about it all the time. i hate that time has to pass so fast, i wish i could go back.

i think i will always be chasing ghosts.

i'm glad i have Nora, she might be miles away but i'm glad.

i'm overdue for a change.