just once more

i should be packing more than i am; i think procrastination is still with me, it shows more now though. i'm leaving Friday to Tempe, the apt will be ready on Sunday. i'm starting to get a bit scared now but i know nerves will hit on the way over there. this is one of the most life changing things that i've done. i wonder how it will go, i'm so used to being babied around & not really doing little things on my own.

so many things are changing it's really wild. it feels like some reality network could videotape everything going on. there might be a little less drama but hey we can't all be a generic version of the O.C.

Nora moved in with Jeffy. Cookie got a boyfriend, my cousin, Velia is planning her move to Florida, Marilyn & i are moving from one desert to a hotter one. i've never seen Crossroads but Nora says this is like the movie. who knows?

i don't feel the same way about Cookie as i used to. i know it's been changing for a while but suddenly the decrease got steep. maybe it's just for the time being, it's just we don't click as much as people see. we only click as much as people think we do. i went to a show with Janet on the 1st. i had a real grand time! i wish i could have hung out with her more. we're a lot alike & yet i can't really call her "best friend" it's weird that people who have so many things in common & get along aren't that close with each other. much like your soul mate-- very unexpected.

i'm looking so hard for Thursday's Porcelain music notes! i want my tattoo already. if only i stumbled upon someone who can convert songs into musical notes. =( help?!

i really miss Joaquin a lot =( this sucks-- i really wish i didn't screw things up & now i can't find him. just once more.....