you travel

i'm so afraid of the future; its a real scary thing. i'm just really paranoid that i will still amount to nothing and not be able to support myself. as of now i'm doing a pretty crappy job with that. i don't think i'm cut out for living. i really don't. i can't picture myself set or happy-- ungrounded.

i like the idea of not being grounded but i know that i do need stability, financially. other than that i wish i were more free. i want to travel & experience things. i don't want to have to be stuck somewhere i don't want to be doing something that eats at me. i want to keep searching until i find the place i want to be. waking up somewhere strange and welcoming. having it feel new all the time; without that feeling fading.

i want to disappear & be.............. something unexplainable-- that makes you smile.

waking up somewhere strange with someone indescribably amazing. never seeing this come.